In which I am miserable and grieve for Torchwood

[galadriel1010]

I've spent the last year and a half in serious denail about Torchwood. I have Jacks and Iantos all over the place, in varying states of relationship settlement and happiness, different developments of Torchwood, different ways that the 456's visit was dealt with or not. It's been a great place to be, and I could stay there quite happily, hoping that the powers that be would get it and bring Ianto back and bring Torchwood back to Cardiff and I would be able to go back to it and go on with it.

Every single thing that I have seen about Miracle Day has damaged this, because Torchwood is moving on, but that's not... Torchwood. Torchwood was black and silver, dark but with sparkles, happiness and loyalty winning through despite everything. Children of Earth ripped that down and I chose to ignore it. Miracle Day is the show I loved as much as Torchwood was Doctor Who.

Since rm's awesome post and essay on grief and mourning for characters (which you should definitely read), I've been back through the spoilery reaction thread I was part of and actually laughed at our reactions. All the shiny shiny hope beforehand, the way we dismissed the rumours of Ianto's demise as ridiculous, the way I got drunk and squeed... the first time I can remember swearing on the internet when it all came crashing down and the denial with which we approached Day 5 (surely it couldn't be that nihilistic?) and then, at the end, the chorus of "they have to bring him back in the next series. They have to see that it makes sense."

We were right, and we were wrong. For Torchwood to continue as it was, it made sense for Ianto to come back. But what they did was ended the series in death and desperation...

And now they're starting a new show with the same name. Do I want to be a part of that?

Would you buy a ticket for a boat called The Titanic?

I can't give up hope that we'll get Torchwood back as it was. But I have to let go of how tightly I was holding it and grieve for the fact that I'll probably never see another new episode.

But get over it? Get over Torchwood?

Maybe. About 100 years after people stop writing Sherlock Holmes fanfiction.

Comments

[fiwen1010.livejournal.com]

I really miss some of the people who've gone, more so because I didn't really get to know them before.

And there's some really good WIPs about which I will cry if they don't get finished.

[bk_forever]

Some writers seem to have just dropped off the face of the earth, their journals abandoned. It's so sad to see the unfinished fics and know they'll likely never be completed.

[fiwen1010.livejournal.com]

I've been really worried about some of them, because they disappeared so completely and no one had heard from them. Most of them have checked in sicne, but a few haven't at all.

[bk_forever]

It's worrying because we can't just pop round to their house and check they're okay! We're just left wondering what's happened to them, if they've started another journal elsewhere under a different name and in a different fandom, or if they've given up on fandom altogether, or...

I've left comments occasionally on seemingly abandoned fics, but they never get answered. Once in a while someone pops back up again and I'm glad, but most of the time nothing. It's a bit weird finding myself worrying about people I've never spoken too.

[fiwen1010.livejournal.com]

Lots and lots of this. It's like when McParrot and Phaeton's Chariot were quiet after the earthquake, and thank God they're okay, but but you're sitting there going "they have more important things to worry about, and they might not have power, and there's many many possible reasons that they've not appeared yet, but please let them be okay..."